“If You Ever Come Back, I’ll Be Here”

So now that we’re all moved into the new place, the major things are all set up, I have discovered that we miraculously have internet. I’m not sure where from, but we have it. So I get to blog!

Once I got a chance to sit down and actually go through my emails and whatnot from the last couple days, I signed onto MSN for the first time in ages. I don’t think I had been online in months, due to Facebook chat always being there. It didnt seem to be that much of a deal. Funnily enough, I got swamped with messages from people I hadnt talked to in forever. One person whom I hadnt talked to in a long time was Dayne, a guy I dated during my time in college, and whom I also stopped seeing around the time of my surgery.

He asked me, “Are you ever going to come for a visit? I miss you so much, and it hurt so bad when you told me you had a boyfriend and were moving far away.”

This kinda shocked me, you know? When we were seeing eachother, he wasn’t ever too interested in US. I remember when we went on our first date, he emailed me the minute he got home. “You’re amazing, you’re so funny, you’re so gorgeous.” We really had a connection, and things went pretty off when he found out I was younger than he had thought. A couple months later, we started things up again, but I didnt really have the same gusto as previously. Am I to blame? At any rate, somehow he thought I should just ‘know” that he was falling in love with me, without him telling me. And as we were talking, he says to me, “Well you’ll always have a boyfriend waiting for you. If you ever come back, I’ll be here”.

Weird.

But the thing is, I love being with Cowboy. I dont ever find myself going “well at least there’s someone back in BC for me”. That never pops into my head. I still have no doubts about this, about where I am going with him.  I am so happy with him, and I wouldnt want it any other way.